A long wait. I found out at a very young age, that my reproductive organs aren’t shaped and developed properly, and got told that I would never carry a baby full-term. I was raised believing the greatest job in the world, was being a mom; so hearing this news absolutely shattered me from the inside. I carried this burden for years as I grew up into a teenager. At the very young age of 16, I decided my highest chance of having a baby, would be to try young and give it my best shot. I didn’t get pregnant right away as it was very difficult, but I didn’t lose hope. And by miracle, I got pregnant. With a broken heart, and healing soul, I can say, I lost my baby. But I never gave up hope in trying. I kept trying, and trying. I got pregnant a total of 7 times…..
In June of 2025, I found out I was pregnant again. All of the fear, worry, stress, anxiety, and excitement came at an all time high. But we decided this time would be different. I went to the hospital immediately for confirmation and to be put on prescriptions to help baby stay to the best of my abilities, and to our surprise, IT WORKED!!! With the fear of loss again, we paid for an at home gender test, so baby wouldn’t have to go unknown by us. That’s when we found out we would have a little girl. By 20 weeks, we finally announced. Things got hard, and the fear grew, but with everyday we made progress. March 4th couldn’t come soon enough. With the date getting closer we decided we were safe to buy stuff finally… and I’m so glad we did.
On February 7th I went into labor, and again, the fear rose up. “The doctors were right” “I cant carry full term” “will she be ok”. But by February 8th, at almost 8 am, we were blessed by our tiny miracle of a baby girl. And despite being premature, she stayed strong, and came home at a week old exactly!!! I can definitely say, she makes me wonder about my other babies, but I am so blessed to have my little girl, and she really made every dream of mine come true, and continues to do so everyday.
I can say, im very glad to finally have my rainbow baby in my arms, and I truly believe her siblings in heaven sent her to me. Shes so perfect, even with her tiny self.
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