My name is Isabella and I was diagnosed at age 17 with PCOS. Hearing that news I thought well there goes being a mom out the window. Me and my ex husband tried and tried and tried and ended up getting pregnant with my first daughter Rhiannon. We lost her early due to a missed miscarriage. It devastated me and we ended up going separate ways I didn’t even want to try again because of the trauma and the bond I had created with her. Cut to now me and my fiance we’ve been together for 3 years. I have a beautiful bonus son who has given me everything and more of being a mom. But there was always something in me that craved to have that feeling in my belly of life being created. I always told friends and family “I don’t even want to be a mom” boy that was the biggest lie I’ve ever told. My soul craved a little mini me. Watching my bonus baby grow and become a little man with his own personally just made it stick more that I did want a baby.
We tried and ended up losing 3 babies. Never got to the point of being able to see anything other than some cells in my body. It changed something in my brain to say “no more no more until we can see a specialist.” The losses were taking a toll on my mental and physical health… so we stopped for a while.. We made a huge move from our little abode to a new place and while moving I just felt off. Cut to us two weeks into our new home I realized my period hadn’t come in MONTHS! Which was usually normal for me because of my PCOS. But this time I just felt different. What I didn’t know is that there was a little bean sticking and growing inside of me.
Her name is Luna Therese and she is due May 3rd 2026. I didn’t even believe it at first when I saw the test instantly go to positive. I took a second one immediately thinking that I got a bunk test. Nope all three tests were positive and tears were streaming from both of our eyes. I couldn’t even feel my legs because I didn’t believe it… This wasn’t planned and it definitely wasn’t expected.
When we went to the first appointment I held my breath because what happens if this isn’t a viable pregnancy.. what happens if I get the same news again… “Sorry we’re going to have to do a procedure”… I didn’t even want to get excited about it until I knew it was real but there was this little flicker in me that said this has to be it…. as soon as she put that Doppler down with the ultrasound and that heart rate of 150 popped up there was nothing but happy tears flowing. Hearing the words “this IS a viable pregnancy” were the words that changed everything for me. It’s like a light had been relit that I never knew went out. I started to think differently about life again, I started the healing process of loss to a new beginning with a beautiful family. Being a high risk pregnancy is still nerve wrecking but thinking positive is the only thing I can do at this time.
Now sitting here writing this I’m 21 weeks and I found Journey For Jasmine a beautiful woman sharing beautiful stories for all types of woman around the world going through very similar stories of loss and hope. The sisterhood of the traveling skirt I have never felt more seen and heard. Seeing everyone’s stories of loss and hope and future really sat and resonated with me.
Going into these later months of pregnancy has been life changing. Feeling her move and kick has been so surreal… now the countdown begins for her to come earth side!! Thank you for letting me share my story and the beautiful skirt to go along with it.
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