My husband and I have been married for 13 years and it probably sounds naive but we never thought we would end up facing pregnancy loss. Prior to our two losses we have 5 healthy children. My first through fourth pregnancies went very well and I had zero complications. Then with our 5th I had a subchorionic hematoma, and I did experience bleeding and cramping one time which was very scary. Thankfully the hematoma got reabsorbed back into my body and the pregnancy carried on as usual.
Then in late February 2025 I experienced my first pregnancy loss which was an early miscarriage at 3-4 weeks. After I took many pregnancy tests and got mixed results, I decided to get my HCG levels tested. My HCG result was “15.” I knew after I got the HCG result that this pregnancy wouldn’t last and knowing that ahead of time was difficult. Two days after getting my HCG tested is when I started to lose the baby. We decided to name this baby “Baby Crew.”
Two months later on April 20th 2025 I took a pregnancy test and it was positive right away. My husband and I were both excited and nervous. Once I got past the 4 week mark with this pregnancy, I thought I would start to feel more at ease. The truth is during this pregnancy I was anxious the whole time and I prayed that I would not lose this baby too.
Around the 10 week mark I started to bleed bright red. A few days later the bleeding had subsided. On the day I started to bleed I was able to get in for an ultrasound and I could see the baby’s heart beating. With tears swelling up in my eyes I said “Thank You Jesus.” The ultrasound results showed that I had not one but two subchorionic hemorrhages. At this point, we didn’t know where the hemorrhages were. Later ultrasounds revealed that the two hemorrhages were on my placenta.
There were two other times when bleeding occurred during this pregnancy. At 14 weeks for a week, and from week 21 up to when our daughter was born at 24 weeks and 6 days.
At 22 and a half weeks my water broke prematurely but I had no idea since I was bleeding when it happened. The preruptured membranes was confirmed when I got an ultrasound done at 23 weeks. After being shown the outcomes for a babies survival with preruptured membranes, the maternal fetal medicine doctor brought up the different “options” of what we could do. I knew there was only one option and that was to fight to keep our daughter, Maria, alive and to hopefully bring her home. I decided to be admitted into the hospital that same day. I stayed in the hospital for two and a half weeks. In order to try to keep Maria in as long as possible I was given steroid shots for her lungs, antibiotics to prevent infections, and a few other medications. Maria and my body held on from week 23 up to 24 weeks and 6 days. Maria was born through an emergency c section on September 15th 2025 at 11:53 am. As the emergency c section was being performed my placenta was abrupting.
Our Maria Elizabeth was in the NICU for 13 hours before she went home into the arms of Jesus. While she was in the NICU our Priest came to baptize and chrismated her. I held Maria as she passed in my arms.
We love and miss our Baby Crew and Maria so so much!! There isn’t a day that goes by where I don’t think about them.
I wanted to wear the rainbow skirt because we hope and pray that we can have our double rainbow pregnancy/pregnancies in the future (Lord willing)! My husband and I are on a journey to bettering our health to hopefully prevent another devastating loss.
Jeremiah 29:11
11 “For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare[a] and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope.”
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