In April of 2024 my husband and my two children went to a high risk ob visit at 17 weeks pregnant with our little girl Willow, everything was normal as of then. We unfortunately had our girls with us because it was an 8:30am visit and we could not get a babysitter that early.
We start with an ultrasound, my oldest is on her tablet, and my husband had our little one who was 6 months old. I remember watching her play, I was not looking at the ultrasound other then here and there. It was going to be a 1hr and a half ultrasound, but in the first 5 minutes the lady said she had to step out for a few minutes to talk to the doctor. I look at my husband and say Oh great here we go again. We were just there in October with our Youngest who has a stage 3 heart block and had to deliver that day. So in my mind that just happened again it was just found early this time. Which is why we are seeing the High risk doctor.
The dr came in and introduced himself. I blow him off. He did a little more ultrasound and said this is the hardest part of my job. I looked at him and said the younger one’s heart doesn’t work. Did it happen again? He said no there was no heartbeat at all.
I got up and walked out with my family. We put the girls In the car, then I fell to the ground in the parking lot and cried.
Now almost a year later we are expecting our rainbow baby. At first we had the same due date. There has not been a minute in this journey that I have not missed our sweet Willow. I am hopeful to bring our last baby earth side.
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