This is the final story from the group that did pictures together. Mallory, of Northeast Sisterhood and Birth Doula Services, is the one who got the group together and took all of the photos. The other stories include in this group are Martha and Angelica.
Hello, My name is Caitlin and I would like to share with you my pregnancy journeys. I was diagnosed with PCOS (Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome) in August of 2011, after experiencing my first pregnancy loss.
After a few months of trying to conceive, I just thought I was having another irregular cycle, like I usually did. It wasn’t until about a month later of continued bleeding that I finally decided to go to the doctor to see what the issue was. I went to the doctor by myself, thinking it would have just been a simple check up. They had me take a pregnancy test as usual.
I still vividly remember sitting there as the nurse walked in with the results. She handed the test to the doctor and then proceeded to tell me that it was a positive test result, but it is more than likely a miscarriage. She had me do some bloodwork and would let me know the results as soon as possible. I left the office that day in total shock.
The next morning, on April 23rd, 2011, a nurse called to confirm that I was having a miscarriage. No one can ever prepare you for that type of phone call.
It took me a while to be happy again. It was depressing to me to see other women get pregnant and have beautiful babies with no issues at all. I was so happy for them, but yet I still wanted that to be me. My husband at the time, and I tried for 5 years to get pregnant with no positive results. My doctor finally prescribed Metformin and Clomid to see if that would help with conceiving. I took three rounds of the medication, but it didn’t work at all.
So I finally chose to not worry so much about getting pregnant and to work on getting myself into shape and taking care of me. After one month of doing that, I got a positive pregnancy test! I believe that the Lord prepared me for His perfect time for my rainbow baby.
On September 4th, 2016, Ezekiel Xander, 8.9 Lbs of pure love, made his grand entrance on his Papa’s birthday. Ezekiel Means, “God’s Strength”, and I believe that because of God’s Strength and love for me, He blessed me with my precious miracle baby.
Fast forward to a year later, I was a single mother, taking it day by day, learning how to adjust to our new life. Ezekiel gave me the strength and helped me get through many storms that I faced. The Lord blessed me with such an incredible little boy that loves me with his whole little heart.
In March of 2018, The Lord blessed me with bringing my current husband, Zach, into my life. August 3rd, 2019, we got married and had our wedding In his small hometown. We wanted our family to grow immediately, but we knew that there could be some issues, due to my past.
December 21st, 2019, came around and we were visiting my siblings out of town. I wasn’t feeling the greatest and had some light spotting and cramping. My monthly cycles were off again so I didn’t think anything of it, but I ended up taking a pregnancy test and it came back positive. I was in complete shock, since we only started trying to conceive after our wedding in August.
I was super excited, but also my anxiety set in. I FaceTimed my family to share the exciting news, but to also let them know the issues that I was starting to have. Unfortunately, it only progressed the next day. I wasn’t able to do anything but lay down and curl up into a ball. We ended up leaving late that night due to me being in so much pain. My fear was starting to become reality. The 6 hour drive home was excruciating. We were able to see my midwife the following morning, and she confirmed it was a miscarriage. I did the math and I would have been about 7 weeks along. That Christmas was very hard for me.
A couple months later, I ended up having a cyst on my right ovary, that was leaking, causing me excruciating pain. A couple months after that dissolved, my doctor put me on Letrozole to help me with trying to conceive.
On August 11th, 2020, with only one round of the medication, I got a positive pregnancy test! I had so many emotions, that I almost didn’t believe my eyes. The Lord blessed us with another rainbow baby at the most perfect time.
In a few short weeks, we will be welcoming Levi Stone into this world and we couldn’t be anymore excited.
When I found out that my sister, Mallory, was getting the rainbow skirt, I immediately told her that I was all in. I wanted to share my pregnancy journey, in hopes of helping other women know that they are not alone. It has not been an easy road, but I wouldn’t be the woman that I am today, without going through these storms. And now, I am not only going to have one, but two rainbow babies that turned some storms into something beautiful.
Photos taken by Siesel Photography.
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