A little bit about the story of Scarlett and how she came to be. I was in a 10 year marriage and he did not want children. It took me by surprise and it also took me 6 long years to finally decide to leave him. I proceeded to become sober and truly figure out what it is I want in my life. During this process, I met my current partner, Garret. Garret wanted kids and I did too. We weren’t sure how this would look since we both had been married before and didn’t want to jump into anything too quickly. However, we fell in love quickly and after a year of dating, became pregnant. It wasn’t hard for us as we only tried for one month. I feel so fortunate that it was so easy for us to have conceived Scarlett. The pregnancy itself was a bit more rocky. I had a subchorionic hematoma from week 11-16 and then everything seemed fine. I had multiple ultrasounds and anatomy scans to be sure. But one day (June 9th,2025) I started bleeding more heavily and had Scarlett at 26 weeks, 2 days gestation. She was born on June 10th, 2025 at 3:16 PM.
The placenta had abrupted and there was a hematoma on 90% of the placenta. I couldn’t believe this. I was so shocked to hear that and when I learned it, I was so focused on Scarlett in the NICU, that I didn’t digest it at all. It is only now, since she has been gone since 6/28/25 that I am able to truly reflect on the month of her birth, her short life, and her death.
Birthing Miss Scarlett was surreal. I was truly in denial it was happening as she wasn’t due until September 14th, 2025 and it was only June 10th. And yet, she arrived within 4 hours of me returning to the hospital. I was sad, elated, scared, and wanted her to be okay. We had 18 beautiful days with her before her little lungs gave out from pulmonary hypertension and sepsis.
We have been surrounded by a community of strength and love. There have been friends, family, and bereavement groups who’ve banded together to help us move into the next format of life now that we have lost our precious little angel baby on Earth side. I feel scared, sad, angry, and yet a bit of hope as we want to try again and hopefully bring a baby into the world who can stay on earth.
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