I’m Ashley. I’ve been pregnant 5 times.
I have had 4 miscarriages and my stillborn daughter, Serenity.
I was 28 when I first found out I was pregnant. I thought it was a joke cause at 19 I was told I would never have children. I was not in a great relationship and ended up losing my first baby. I never heard his or her heartbeat, had a name picked out, or even knew if it was a boy or a girl.
September 2020 I started dating my boyfriend who already had a daughter named Freya. We ended up getting pregnant with my rainbow baby unfortunately the pregnancy ended up being a miscarriage.
I then got pregnant May 2021 and unfortunately I had another loss. All 4 losses were around 7 weeks.
I then found out I was pregnant with Serenity November 2021. I was so nervous and scared to go to my first appointment afraid I wouldn’t see his or her heartbeat, fortunately I did I cried as well. I was so happy I couldn’t wait to tell her father and sister. Freya isn’t my biological child she’s still my daughter.
We found out in March 2022 she would be a girl and I knew instantly what I was naming her. I chose Serenity cause she gave me so much serenity and peace. I named her middle name Robin after my mom who passed away in 2017 her grandmother.
Unfortunately April 29th 2022 I went to my last baby appointment not knowing it would be my last appointment and I discovered she no longer had a heartbeat. I was supposed to be 6 months but she stopped growing at around 5 months but I didn’t know that.
May 5th I gave birth to her she was so tiny. I was devastated, her sister was devastated and her dad was too.
September 2023 I discovered I was pregnant again and I was so nervous and scared unfortunately November 1st I discovered I had another loss.
I’m still waiting for my rainbow baby.
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