Stephanie’s Story

Our story is one of secondary infertility, loss, and holding onto hope when it felt impossibly heavy. We are so incredibly grateful for our beautiful son, now 6, who has been our guiding light through a journey that began when he was just 12 months old. When we decided to give him a sibling, we never could have imagined the road ahead.

After 15 months of trying, we fell pregnant with our daughter and were overjoyed. Our son, just 2 at the time, was certain from the very beginning that the baby in my belly was a baby sister. At 15 weeks, our world shifted when we learned she likely had a chromosomal abnormality and was diagnosed with cystic hygroma. At 18½ weeks, we made the heartbreaking decision to say goodbye to her through TFMR — a decision made purely out of love, to spare her from suffering.

Healing was not straightforward. Alongside our grief, I experienced a postpartum haemorrhage weeks later. Still, with hope and a longing to give our son a living sibling, we tried again. From January 2023 to October 2024, we endured a missed miscarriage at 12 weeks, two early losses, and a chemical pregnancy. Each one chipped away at our hearts.

When I saw a positive test on our daughter’s anniversary, I quietly hoped it was a sign from her — that maybe this time would be different.

Even now, it’s hard to fully believe that we will get to bring this baby home until he is in our arms, healthy and breathing. After everything, it truly felt like this chance might never come again. Our son is beyond excited to become a big brother to a baby boy, and we are holding onto hope that in just a few short weeks, we will finally bring our rainbow home. 

Emrys George 

You came to us softly, after the storm,

Carried on hope, we thought we had worn.

Five tiny stars we hold in our hearts, 

Whispering love that never departs.

Your story began on a day full of grace,

A positive test on your sister’s embrace.

A quiet reminder, gentle and clear,

That love still finds ways to bring hope near.

You were meant for a day where their names are spoken, 

For the babies remembered, the hearts that are broken.

But you chose instead, with meaning so deep,

A day for the parents who’ve learned grief can keep.

On Pregnancy After Loss Awareness Day,

You opened your eyes and found your way. 

A rainbow we longed for through sorrow and grace,

Now finally here, for us to embrace.

Your name, sweet Emrys, means love never ends,

Immortal and strong, like the bond heaven sends.

For the ones before you are part of your song,

And through you, their love still carries along.

So sleep, little miracle, safe in our care,

A promise of hope after all we’ve had to bear.

So loved, so longed for, our beautiful boy,

Our rainbow, our healing, our hearts greatest joy.

Photos taken by AshleyJ Photography.

Find out more about Project Finding Your Rainbow.

Make sure to follow Journey For Jasmine on Instagram, Facebook, and Tik-Tok!

Listen to the Finding Hope After Loss Podcast!